Oli Sykes admits: ‘I wanted to die’
BMTH frontman recalls how ketamine addiction almost cost his life
Bring Me The Horizon frontman Oli Sykes has admitted he wanted to die while he was addicted to ketamine.
Now Sykes tells Alternative Press: “My issues stemmed from the fact that I was trying so hard to fight against what people were saying about me. I wasn’t what people were saying I was. But I wasn’t a good person either. I felt so guilty about who I was.”
He calls ketamine a “scummy drug,” saying it disconnected his mind from his body, and adds: “It took my ego away. It took away who I was. I nearly killed myself. I just didn’t care whether I lived or not.
“I was very close – I wanted to die.”
Despite accepting that a month in rehab helped him, the Sykes says: “I didn’t believe the stuff they told me. They tell you ‘it’s a disease,’ but that’s bollocks. It’s not a disease. It’s a self-inflicted problem. It’s offensive to people with diseases to claim addiction is a disease.
“They said it would be a struggle every day, that you’re an addict for the rest of your life. It’s all bollocks. I’ve never looked back since I got clean.”